Okay, i know, i know i havent been here for about a year really.. or two. i feel bad. really. i dont even think anybdy comes here any more but i had quite a few subscribers before.. can't imagine why. but it's been a while and i haven't been writing. i was reading my old posts and i feel so.. awkward.. emarressed almost. i was so young.. and i was so optimistic and loving and in love. what happened? to those of you who don't know how old i am, i am 17 years old now. when iw as writing in here, was 14, 15.. weird huh.. it's hard to be that young and admit it because people really don't take your work seriously. I feel like i was more mature for my age back then than i am now. I am back in America from shanghai for a month until school starts again for me again and i have so much on my mind. this past year, i've grown with my photography but not so much my writing. And reading this stuff that i'd written when i was so young, so young, well i am still very young, makes me feel strange.

time doesn't mean a thing.

maybe i think i'll start again.. this time it will be different.